Monthly Archive for January, 2006

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Dude Haiku’s For The Day III

Sad to lack Croutons
Bread turds ferrtilizing me
Salad without hope

Tax time nears for me
Duty as a citizen
Stop blowing things up

The nurse laughs with me
Always get along with them
This ones taken too

Immune to your barbs
Implications turned around
I look deep do you?

Should I stay or go?
Train in vain I look for you
Tea can’t cure the pain

Sleepwalking through life
Alert to need to change this
Want to get more sleep

Clowns haunt from inside
funny until they kill you
tears are painted on

Sickness in the air
Caughing caughing everywhere
When it stops what next?

Aliens in heads
Left by galactic warlord
Tom Cruise is crazy

Dude Haiku’s For Today II

New year to begin
Stop this and start again now
Again and again

Still I feel she longs
Introverted and needing
She longs not for me

Interprative law
Flexible morality
This is how Bush wins

Expectations met
Giants need win no more games
At least Eli sees

Eli and defense
can not win now, seasons end
need win no more games

Pain of works return
Searched for escape in the dark
Five days to wipe ass.

Medicate their pain
Work to make the numbness mine
Depakote smells good.

Stupid girl is smart
Stupidly ignoring me
How stupid am I?

Lies for all to eat
Regurgitate his thoughts
See god in the puke.

Listening for us
Destroying them to save them
Evildoers here.

Syriana

Watching this movie was a bit like attending a college lecture as opposed to most films which leave room for the waxing and waning of attention spans without major penalty of blank holes that may haunt them later. I felt a little guilty not taking notes but was reassured by the similarly remiss audience that had assembled for a late night showing to keep me company and reaffirm my faith in the Hudson Valley. Surely they too were aware of the reviews of this movie which have made it abundantly clear that it is very hard to follow and almost impossible to understand. And yet they came. During a 10 p.m. showing and in its 3rd week of release no less. You don’t normally go to the movies at that time on a Tuesday night unless you have a committment to the product and know a little about it. So they must have been prepared as i was, but simultaneously feeling a smug confidence that they, like I, would be able to follow the movie better than some of the professionals paid to conclude, as some of the lesser versions of critics did, that the film was virtually unreviewable. On some level we all believe we’re smarter and more intuitive even if we don’t always express it well. Hell we’re not paid too like them. No, it’s not that complicated. It’s only a movie. We’d do just fine. I wonder if they feel as stupid as I do right now.

Ok, first off there are many who did review this film wel and with understanding of plot and theme. It’s doable. Some of them are like unto gods to me right now.

I’m not saying it’s the most complicated flick I’ve ever taken in or that I didn’t get it, but this was as hard for me to follow as a calculus formula at times. Stephen Gaghan wrote the screenplay for Steven Soderbergh’s Traffic, so it should come as no surprise that Syriana, which he not only wrote but directed, shares some of the first movies labarynthine storyline and multiple plot threads. While he probably could have used some of Soderbergh’s more layered attention to characters nuances and establishment of relationships, the film still manages to be coherent and of a piece. But by not establishing character, or cementing relationships, i often found myself not sure of who was talking to who or why. Alot of the players talk in political code, euphemistically swearing to carry out due process as a morally ambiguous lawyer for a firm that is a key player in the Byzantine plot does, while he at other times seems to indicate that all that matters is the illusion of due process.

This of course made me think of the Plamegate investigation as well as the current Congressional scandals, which took a turn today with Jack Abramoff’s plea bargaining. I didn’t need this movie to make me wonder if all these things amount to is finding sacrificial lambs to throw to the wolves while the big players go right on using the system to enrich themselves, and-contain laughter here-their country. It just reminded me of htat danger. And i don’t know about you but I find that kind of stuff scarier than loonies with sharp knives and masks, or spooky tapes that kill people. And I think we all like to end a night out at the movies feeling angry and pessimistic. And don’t forget stupid.

The webs of intrigue in Syriana left me feeling all these things at times, and in the case of scapegoats for criminal investigations I was left wondering just who the second necessary sacrifice for the oil merger investigation that is the hub around which the movies many spokes travel, was. I think it was revealed I just didn’t get it. I also never quite figured out that lawyers stance and wheather or not he sold out to the firm to gain his foothold and completely turn away from his last vestiges of outsider status his black father hoped to see him preserve, and his color stood for.

Those relationships, like many others in the movie are never really delved into very deeply, but they do manage to be clear. I guess I have to give Gaghan credit for making them so with so little dialogue and effort in that area. Whether purposeful or not, it’s almost like everyone was filling a niche, or even an evolutionary station. So no need to go beyond what was required. Events unfold with the imprecise but fatally unyeilding inevitability of natural selection. Everyone from Washington D.C.’s politicians, it’s lawyers, to Texas oilmen, to Pakistani youths, to Arab Emir’s, to CIA agents, to economic advisors, play their natural part in a drama whose outcome seems so unstoppable. The powers at play are too big to stop. Never in the film is there thought of foiling any of these plots. Never is there doubt that the merger will be completed after a scapegoat found, and never is it implied, much less suggested dramatically, that the young Prince (played by the Dr in Deep Space Nine), who is Western educated and planning on true reform, will be allowed to live.

Matt Damon’s character is the economic advisor who is rewarded the position to the young Prince by his American firm as recompense for his son’s death. He starts to hope for change after a growing cynicism makes him blunt and condescending towards the Prince. Damon is disgusted by the economic incompetence of the Arab world, which could so easily save itself from it’s lesser world status and future regress to past centuries, by investing in its infrastructure and not America’s. This is a liberal film, and Damon makes the previously made liberal point that the best way to become democratic, to grow a viable economy, is by investing internally, and not, to paraphrase Damon, putting millions into American planes and $40,000 a night hotel rooms. History would seem to bear this out with its lessons on diversification of economies and need for a middle class for democratic reforms to blossom.

But when Damon discovers that the Prince is on the same page, a much different man than most of the traditional Muslims and Arab oilmen, he champions him. Of course this is not a plan that American politicians or the good ole boys at the oil company headed by Chris Cooper’s character, can allow. George Clooney plays the CIA agent now on the outs with the agency who is at one time assigned to take out the Prince, though he doesn’t do it. Clooney put on weight and really looks haggard and beaten down, which is appropriate enough for a guy who has been through what he has, seen what he has seen, and is facing his obsolescence. He gets tortured in one pretty gruesome scene, though in keeping with the films impression, I’m not exactly sure why. Had something to do with Hezbollah, though I don’t quite remember Clooney being in Lebanon. That’s not to say he wasn’t, but the film jumps around between locations as much as characters, and there were times I was not sure of where people were talking to each other. This was a nice distraction from wondering who was doing the talking and what they were talking about.

When the inevitable assasination does take place (and if you think I’m spoiling plot then wake up and smell the crude, this movie isn’t The Bourne Identity), an incident with goats and vehicle switches left me a little more confused. For the answer why, I will let you go spoiler free, though it is possible that there is nothing to spoil except my own misunderstanding of what was going on and how they did it. Needless to say, if you see this film (yeah I know you wont), bring your attention span. Bring a couple of them because I haven’t even begun to get into all the many webs of intrigue and connections.

For instnace there’s China. One of the biggest players in the movie though their representatives have only a minor role in it. China’s oil interests in Khazakstan possibly trumping America’s, seems to be one of the motivations for the illegal merger between U.S. oil companies and its tacit approval in Washington. That and of course the politicians cut in the deal, which as many official records in real life indicate, is a commonplace area of corruption and conflict of interests. It is of course these conflicts that play a role in our Iraq situation, which gets a bit of a nod as a secret group that seemed to echo a connection of the Project For The New America Century, Cheney’s secret energy task force, and the CIA, called the Committe for the Liberation Of Iran, exist in the cracks and crevasses of Syriana. Maybe it’s a nod to the shadowy and clandestine world of real politics from which it was drawn, but this groups role and its players never seemed entirely clear to me,
though its nebulous nature was also explicit and obvious.

But it was clearly not liberation of people they were concerned about. At least casual ties to big oil make it clear just what needs liberating. Ultimately it may be our dependence to foriegn oil that is the star of Syriana. When you got right down to it the message of Traffic was that we should be more concerned with cutting off the reasons for the demand of drugs, rather than the supply. Likewise, our demand for cheap energy has a manifold effect that we see from elegant Georgetown townhouses, to the D.O.J,, to Texas corporate boardrooms, and on down to poor disenfranchised Muslim youth turning to charismatic leaders teaching them the Koran, and using it to spur on their acts of terrorism. Damon’s character makes it clear to the Prince how dangerous America is, as gas supplies diminish and motivation to get it from those that have most of it gets sharper and more dangerous.

That is at war with what seems to be the common sense advice for the Arab world to stabilize itself. Those two outcomes are mutually exclusive in our current political and economic paradigms. But as one Arab put it, when you have a country that has 5% of the population but controls more than half the wealth and resources, that country is going to find itself in trouble eventually. Right now it seems as if this cycle of destructive relationships can’t be stopped. The ties will continue to get more and more tangled, the blood more and more red with vengeance, the corruption more and more widespread. It is those seemingly inexorable forces that permeate this movie and its almost interchangeable cast of characters who play their assigned roles as ably as the system that has shaped them intends. But paradigms do change. Syriana does not address this. But it does give a little instruction in how much it needs to, and how it may be catastrophic events that force it to happen.

The movie is probably not as optimistic as I sometimes am that this can still happen with wisdom and invention. Technological advancement continues to race along exponentially, and self preservation of our increasingly luxuriant lifestyles give me hope that men and women of great intellect and creativity exist that will push that envelope and gradually change that paridigm both from outside and inside the corridors of power. As technology speeds its growth, I also think our own wisdom and intelligence can do so as well.

As I write this, some connections do start to form i guess, and I can see where a 2nd and 3rd viewing would be very helpful. There is talk of an extended version on DVD, which I may hold off on until getting a Masters.

Top Political Songs

In the proud tradition of…well, of myself, I’m back with another list. This time it’s political songs. Here’s many of my all time favorites. Sing them, shout them in the streets, raise your fists, rage against the machine, beat your head against a wall, or just shed a tear for our collective stupidity. BUt for god’s sake you must read on…

Masters Of Wars- Bob Dylan and particularly for me the live Pearl Jam cover. Love it when he invokes Jesus to blast these war pigs.

Tramp The Dirt Down- Elvis Costello.
Seems like he’s singing about the Thatcher years. Such a great catharsis for me to stand there on any symbolic grave of the disconnected elitist who turn their backs on us all, and tramp the dirt down along with Elvis.

Imagine- John Lennon.
John found a way to make an anti religious, anti nationalist message a palatable radio favorite. Part of him hated that it had to be done that way, part of me applauds that about him. Most of me is glad we have this just as it is.

Redemption Song- Bob Marley
A song of freedom about one of my favorite subjects. Hey it even bonded Sawyer and Michael on the raft.

Strange Fruit-Billie Holliday
An oldie about hanging black people. Brave of her to write it at that time.

Blowing In The Wind- Bob Dylan
Always works as a puff in the face of the established power and institution of choice.

What’s Goin’ On- Marvin Gaye
Another anti war epic that makes you want to throw your hands up like Marvin and say what the fuck is going on here!

Ball Of Confusion- Temptations
Social justice and racism addressed by normally light lyriced Motown boys.

For What It’s Worth- Buffalo Springfield. This so says Vietnam to me though I can’t claim to be old enough to remember events first hand.

Sunday Bloody Sunday- U2. Keep fighting the good fight Bono!

Born In The USA. Bruce Springsteen. So much better for Ronnie and Co not quite getting it.

Big Yellow Taxi- Joni Mitchell. Wouldn’t have thought of it for this category but it does kind of have an anti corporate bent to it. They paved paradise and put up a parking lot, mall, waste site, refinery, etc etc.

Lost In The Supermarket- The Clash.
Taking on consumerism and conformity counts as political to me.

Do The Evolution- Pearl Jam
P.J. take on the span of history from early man to our future armegeddon in one 4-5 minute song.

Blackened- Metallica
Hard core environmentalism.

And Justice For All- Metallica
The boys rail against the injustice of our justice system back when they were pure and not in therapy.

John Lennon. Working Class Hero.
John gets angry at the big THEY, or the man, or the other kids, the teachers, the damn system, which tries to supress individuality. I get off on the line, “Keeped you doped with religion, sex and tv. And you think you’re so clever, classless and free. But you’re still fucking peasants as far as I can see.”

Sound Of Silence. Simon & garfunkel
Oppressive forces seek to try to muffle the voices of the prophets written on the bathroom walls. It’s the power of song to unite.

Keep On Rockin In The Free World. Neil Young.
Love sarcasm in an energetic rock song.

Radio, Radio. Elvis Costello.
So many Elvis tunes could make it, but props to the King for coming down on corporate radio years before everyone caught on and it became common knowledge. Unfortunately nobody really listened.

Warrior Soul. The Party.
Written during Reagan/Bush era about the party the Republican Party was having over our dead bodies it is more appropriate now.

Wyclef Jean. Million Voices.
Singable tune about the Rwandan genocide and the ideal of a united Africa. “Hear the cries of the children of Rwanda.” Don’t know what the kids are chanting in it but it’s haunting and catchy.

Fortunate Son. Credence Clearwater Revival.
Because you got to have Credence on here. This is one of the original anti war anti establishment, call the hypocrites out tunes. And the real Dude loved them.

Merry Xmas/War Is Over. John Lennon
A Christmas song with all the sweetness you would want from one packed with an anti war and anti apathy message. And you can barely hear Yoko.

Eve Of Destruction. Barry Maguire. Think there’s quite a few versions of this but I think Maguire’s is the original. He sees the bad moon rising and he’s acting as a prophet of non self fulfilling variety.

The Lonesome Death Of Hattie Carrol. Bob Dylan.
Based on the true story of the society approved beating and death of a black woman working as a servant at a hotel. A recent Mother Jones article elaborated on the story including what the killer, William Zantzinger, is up to now (he’s actually helped some down and out people as a slum lord who has been in more trouble with the law since serving a short sentence for killing Hattie). Seems Dylan got some of the facts wrong because he didn’t beat her, he hit her with a cane once and she apparently died from the fear of his verbal abuse and being in a setting with so many upper crust white people who raised no alarm and would do nothing to help her. The ultimate point of her lonely death is still relevant, as are the far reaching affects on her kids, which the article mentions here.

Holy Water. Soundgarden.
Religion is politics and I had to get a good anti religion tune in here. “And they take thine majesty so seriously. It’s the big lies, more likely to be believed.” I interpret this song as a denouncement of the stultifying effects of religion meant to rob people of their indignation and passion. And what other institution stands to benefit from such an arrangement?

Shout At The Moon. The Ramones.
The voice of modern Robin Hoods in ripped jeans and leather.

A Mission Statement

Happy New Years fellow Illuminati! 2006 is here and so am I. Here’s how i hope to rise to the occasion and make myself better and happier in the new year.

No one’s perfect they say and i’m certainly not the exception. But some are more perfect than others. Some have even reached heights of greatness and balance that for all intents and purposes in a relative sense appear perfect. I want to forget for a moment the evidence of how much of this is genetic and environmental, and concentrate on what i can do to be a happier and better balanced person. To get back the best of what was lost, and to solidify the best of what’s been gained, I offer an uncaring world my mission statement to taking this thing to another level on a far more consistent basis. I’m not much for new years resolutions because few people keep them and they are usually out of nowhere and dont have a foundation laid to realistically build upon in 1 year. So these are things that have been building for a while and that already have a basis in reality. I resolve to more fruitfully grow out the seeds put down way before the end of the year and make more of what I can in such a way that can build more in years beyond. Nothing of value happens suddenly and we’re all works in progress if we’re smart, so here’s what i want to continue or start taking to greater levels of balance and transcendence in my life.

To live with open but not grasping arms.
To live in balance between mind, body, and spirit (whether tha latter is real or product of mind).
To expect love.
To continue going to movies alone when I want to see a film no one wants to see.
To recapture some of the romantic literary sensibilities which defined me much more in my youth.
To do this without losing the best of the pragmatic and rational person that honors truth and facts.
To continue getting back to working with humor and an ability to not take the job too seriously while still doing the job seriously.
To continue to evolve. Evolution does not stop for the species or the individual. Gandhi said we need to be the change we want to see in the world, and i extend that wise advice to being the change I want to be in myself. And the world.
To get even closer to the ideal of living without hypocrisy or lie.
To try not and regret, though I know I will until some more worth and love comes out of what has passed.
To be truthful without being hurtful, but without subsuming myself in the wake of others psychological detritus.
To try hard and know the difference between the ones who deserve to be treated as harshly as they treat me and the ones who deserve patience and a softer hand.

These last 2 are not always easy or clear cut. I have recently revised these due to events of past few days. I was planning on forgetting the caveat regarding people’s feelings in a new resolve to no longer let people criticize me or attempt to tear into my psyche without tearing back. But i’m not sure how far to go with this because much of what kept me from doing this more in the past does come from a decent place the more i think about it. I allowed my last girlfriend, and occasionally friends and coworkers/acquantainces to lesser extents, to take shots at me and try to lower my esteem yet further, without taking shots back though I had an arsenal of hurtful and legitimate invective or criticism to hurl back. My reasoning for this and my compromise statement will follow in comments at another time.

So with that explanation and tease that surely has you all making your plans to ensure constant attention to your computer and this site, I now return to list of more brief nature as I’m sure you tossers will appreciate.

I will repress myself less. That is slow death.
I will continue bearing the burdens I must, but will try harder not to let them prevent me from seizing opportunity if I am ever so fortunate to have it again.
I will write more. In some capacity or other.
I will continue flirting more.
I will exercise more than i have been the past year.
I will be bold so that mighty forces come to my aid.
I will see truth win out again as the Bush administration has another bad year.
I will not set my heart on impeachment. But if it happens it will probably start early 07 and I will rejoice in its beautiful irony and supreme justice.
I accept that I will be bitter if it doesn’t happen.
I will date again.
I will become smarter realative to the decreasing of brain cells that is inevitable.
I will change something at work for the better even if quitting is not yet under serious consideration.
I will be more outside myself.
Thought about vowing to get supervisor job and go back to school but I’m still not sure these are in my current best interests. They may turn out to be. I will be better regardless.
To do what I want to do.
To be more decisive about what this is in matters great and small.
To not care about others approval in this.
To do something unusual for me.
To make more lists on this site whetehr you like it or not (see, I’m already making progress.)
To do some math.
To laugh more.
To give it another year.