It's coming soon people. I don't know what to call it or what it will do. i do hold affirmitively to the faith that it will be good. But I feel it stirring. It's been gestating within me for decades. It's birth is near. You have all been warned. You have been summoned. This is gonna' be good. Except for my back-disc-neck-shoulder which may need operating on. BUt first some randomness…

  …What's with car commercials calling new models futuristic? I think it's Toyota that's calling one of their new models by such an adjective. I don't see it. Does it fly? Do its doors tilt upward instead of opening out and to the side?Is it fueled by the screams of children? No? THen it's not the future I was promised as a child and I don't wasnt to hear anymore future talk until the above criteria are fulfilled.

  Speaking of commercials those beer commercials with the singing bottle of something, I think its Heineken singing, "Don't you wish your girlfreind were just like me…Don't you wish your girlfriend was fun like me…" are really taking the whole beer as transference for sex to an alltime low level. Do I wish my girlfriend were shaped like a bottle, cold and hard to the touch, perspering beads of moisture, and likely to make me feel stupid and dizzy?

  Been there, done that. Stop drinking and talk to your girlfriend if you have one.

  On a more serious note I'm going to say this once, and I might say it again with greater elaboration later, but I don't care how you mock me. If you can't see the beauty in the statement I'm about to make and don't appreciate the greatness and superior qualities of the subject of the person I'm going to make it about, you suck and are a product of our narrowly focused media. Here it is: I want Al Gore for President in 2008!

   Again I will elaborate later as we get closer to run up and prep for campaign 08. Don't have time to go into it all now. I'll just say he's the smartest, most decent, one of the funniest (yeah he has a hard time showing it on campaign trail and in formal speeches), most progressive, forward thinking and ahead of his time politicians we've seen in our time. Plus after the last 6 years, going on 8, that more and more people realize were a colossal mistake, as well as a theft of office and coup de tat, it would send a signal to all who hate us now that we realize it all went wrong starting around there and now we want to make amends and get it right, doing what should have been done.

  Change of topic:  It's maddening how our perceptions about ourselves color our perceptions of how others see us. I've let that happen in the past though I am often on the money. BUt I was thinking about my recent experience with the woman I liked who snubbed me in produce aisle  like I was a rotten head of cabbage. One of our own here has managerial meetings with her occasionally and sees her around the administration offices of their agency and he too has noticed a certain…let's say reluctance, to engage herself. He has made comments about me to her, as I have to her about him sho she knows there is a friendship there. I assumed her attitude was due to her knowing I had an interest, thinking I was using a friend to get a good report in, and her wanting to send the signal to back off. I figured she found me beneath her. Not worthy and someone to keep at a distance when not work related.

  But it seems just as possible she doesn't think she's worthy of me. She's reportedly on shy side and may be intimidated by my charms and wit.

  Fuck you, I do to have charm and wit.

  Sometimes. What's important is that she's seen some of it. she's also been in management meeting where my friend has been extolled and heralded as he has clearly stood out as being on a higher level of capability and intelligence than what they are used to. If she is shy, she is most likely prone to self consciousness and esteem issues. Though she seems a very capable and preofessional program head, she more than likely doubts herself and feels like a fraud at times. THat is natural for many in her position. So its possible her attitude towards the friend is due to her not feeling she measures up to him. She could in fact be intimidated by him, thus increasing her awe of me by extension.

  Ok perhaps awe is a strong word here.

  But it's possible this theory could be reality. I'm not sure. I'd say its 50-50.

  I'm not dwelling on the subject or the girl, but it strikes me as interesting how our own moods can transfer themselves into what we think is going on in other people's heads.

  Does this mean I'm going to ask her out?

  Probably not. Not without some kind of in. But it does make me more likely to take a random moment and opportunity and an instance of her letting the guard down to throw it out there. That may not present itself again. Maybe fresh fruit was all we'll ever have together. That might be best since I'm shy and insecure enough for 2, and dont need to manage that in someone else. And maybe its nice to go off into the sunset thinking this latter-she is intimidated by me and feels inferior rather than superior and out of my league-theory is true rather than having to find out the former-i suck and will grow desperate enough to date a born again Christian again-theory, is the reality.

  Another note on Lost: What if neither hatch is running a test on the other. What if the whole thing is a test on us the viewers? THis could be some sociological study to see just how far people will go to escape reality, even to the point of suspending disbelief enough to allow a show that poses the hint of visitations, mind reading nano-black smoke monsters, extremely far fetched coincidences, and inexplicable behavior, that it never really explains, to engulf our lives, take our money (figurines are coming soon in addition to more DVD's), chase after fake commercials, and perhaps alter our behavior in ways we have yet to see manifest.

  Or what if the Hanso Foundation is real and hiding behind the illusion of fiction and is recruiting through the facade of a tv show?

    6 days until happy Dude emerges carefree and full of joy and verve (except for the possible exoskeletal issues). I'm talking about vacation. 163 hours to go as of 2 a.m. Friday-Saturday night-morning the 26th-27th of May.

  Countdown with me wont you?